Now that I wasn’t managing the daily logistics of having three kids, and constantly tending to everyone else's needs, I didn't know what to do with myself.
I was so afraid of being judged for my messy house, I chose loneliness at a time when I needed companionship so much.
My daughter and I both know I'm not the same as other moms. But there are still good days with chronic pain and illness, and this is how we cope.
While I love my boys with a depth and passion I didn’t know was possible before I became a parent, I would never be a stay-at-home mom.