Chrissy Teigen just shared the most beautiful essay about pregnancy loss

In a heartbreakingly beautiful and insightful essay, Chrissy Teigen has opened up about her pregnancy loss last month when she and husband John Legend said goodbye to their third child, a son they'd named Jack. The grieving star, who is mom to daughter Luna and son Miles, poured her heart out in her typically candid style, sharing the whirlwind of thoughts and feelings that belie such a deeply painful experience.

We really don't want to say much because Chrissy did so perfectly in her Medium essay. Please go read it for yourself. In it, she talks about what it felt like to give birth to her 20-week-old son after a partial placenta abruption and weeks on bedrest, why she documented the intensely sad moment and shared photos of Jack's delivery with the world (despite facing a disgusting amount of backlash for doing so) and what her life has been like since. The essay describes the guilt that haunts her when she's happy, and how she feels about making both her joy and grief so public. "I was so positive it would be okay. I feel bad that I made you all feel bad. I always will."

But the essay isn't all gloom. Chrissy also expresses how incredibly hopeful and grateful she is for the outpouring of love she's received from fans that has helped her to process the experience.

"I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life, so I truly thank you for allowing me to do so. Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see. Thank you so much to every single person who has had us in their thoughts or gone as far as to send us your love and stories. We are so incredibly lucky."

Pregnancy loss can be such a lonely and isolating experience, so it's particularly meaningful that Chrissy was able to share her experience publicly and help so many parents feel less alone.